| ohhh logan |
[Nov. 20th, 2005|03:42 pm] |
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| | jingle bell rock | ] |
for logan:
well Mr. sibrel
well well well well
no need to feel down for your art, you are a great painter all you have to have is faith in your work and anger and to punch ot her artist and fight for your art. i envy you in may was, one is your aart becaseu not all people can pick up a brush and creat life, i feel like i cheat becaseu anyone can push a button (well not everyone can do it wiht passion) but you have nothing to feel down about, smile......
come on give me a smile
it doesn't take that much of an effort
come one ....smile
it may be cold out side but we have each other to keep us warm and sane
i know you'll read this soon
i know just what you'll say
but i'm not afraid to say online that i love you and everything about you
joel |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 24th, 2005|06:05 am] |
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| |  blah | ] |
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| | goodbye to you | ] |
well this is my last jurnal entery because i have come to the conclusion that is very creapy letting stangers know how i am doing, if they care to see how my life is, well i will tell them but as for now, good bye live journal, it was wierd
bye everyone
i'll see you when i see you
joel |
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| el jinete no para por nadie |
[Oct. 19th, 2005|03:09 pm] |
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| | determined | ] |
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| | Tres caballeros- el preso numero 9 | ] |
So I lost my camera but gained something better. A better understanding of Logan. Oh me Oh my all mine. I can’t believe he was that worried, it is nice to know that someone aside from my family cares about me. I cant's seem to d=find that many people that care that much for little things that the Gods do against me. Well I guess I deserve it, I usually take things I find and well what goes around come around, I had to learn things the hard way, like many things in my life but oh well I am over it. Even thought I feel like a lost a limb, my third eye, my dick even! It was as much a part of me like a toe is or a mouth. It sucks but all I can do is shed a few tears and move on. Logan and I are going to go to see the Ballet Folklorico this Saturday and I am so excited, I might just cream my pants....... |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 17th, 2005|02:04 pm] |
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| | blank | ] |
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| | el preso numero 9 | ] |
and down comes the times when we all must talk. the days are watering down when we all must talk. what will i say. how much will i smear this image of mine in those eyes of yours. ponder, ponder under trees. what i am i going to do with all these falls. and down come the days like grains of sand upon this back of mine. the hot land calls, the mother blood calls, Mexico in my mind, childhood in my thoughts. the motherland calls. and more and more i feel the weight. the mother land calls. the parents call, the years fall. 11 years and counting. what am i doing here? |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 12th, 2005|01:05 pm] |
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| | nothing but fucking white noise | ] |
and so the saying goes.."fucking shit dam fuckity fuck face motherfuckershit ball licker annal lick face labia breath"
oh what a fucking day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| down comes the fall of the great ones |
[Oct. 10th, 2005|11:09 am] |
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| |  hungry | ] |
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| | r.e.m- loosing my religion | ] |
this weekend i had a bad cold, and i still do. i tried to study for my buddhism exam but my eyes couldnt stay open. i should be in art history right now but i decided to take a little break so i can do some more studying. what the fuck was i thinkning in taking classes like this!!!
I met logan's mom and sister. they were nice, they like me (according to logan) so that is good. Last night, there was an ill feeling about the air. i didnt want to walk home becasue it felt as if there was something bad hanging in the air. wating for someone to walk in her night and make her her next victim. so i called my brother, i had a really bad feeling about last night. Logan walked in trying to show off his new jaket, lol. I've noticed how much more i am trying to leave my old life behind. more and more the skins have shead and now i feel brand new. the people left behind are nothing more to me than the my last past lives, they have all been left behind. more and more i try to forget and ignore the people i dinned with. they would never understand. they are too in their little world that they wont see the universe around them.
"pause, hold that gaze"
"just the way i want to remember you"
"watch your words for they will mark the departure of my sight"
"look how much we've grown"
"more darker skin, more facial hair, a bit more fainter eyes"
"so this is it, no longer speak"
"this was never ours"
"our views have clashed, the blood has shown"
"lets just say good bye"
goodbye old life |
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| (no subject) |
[Oct. 7th, 2005|03:24 pm] |
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| | artistic | ] |
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| | duele el amor sin ti | ] |
"hold that pose"
"take air in"
"pass the mod podge"
"paste it right"
"porno time, close the door"
"take air in, a little more"
"quote on quote"
"video art or video crap, my eyes see a better light"
"Logan is snoring, parakeets crawling"
"We all sit at the dinner table, i do breakfast, lunch and sena"
"spanish dictionary for your troubles?"
"i sit wating for dear logan, lord logan, boy logan"
"man! i need to paste a little more, a little closer, a little longer"
"i got it right!, i got it right!, dam it, the color is just not right"
"sister, sister, how is she doing, not so brown but a bit more white"
"grandma, abuela, wrinkle wrinkle, i need to see your sight"
"i am hungry., o so hungry"
"a burger sounds just right"
"got to go, the boy is home, the birds all call, the phone is off"
"but my mind is aflight" |
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| i think i am sick (maybe life or just my throat) |
[Oct. 6th, 2005|11:03 am] |
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| | refreshed | ] |
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| | yin yang-jarabe de palo | ] |
crying trees and not the willows
falling leafs red of blood
growing roots just getting longer
this town is now my home
stained reminders and scars to show them
shall i step a little further
you have come here now i'm eager
shall i come a little closer
getting browner, growing older
can you feel this warmth of mine
step by step we go to educate
this primitive brain that only mimics
only mimics out of love |
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| los dias pasan tan rapido pero los dioses despasio |
[Oct. 5th, 2005|01:14 pm] |
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| | amused | ] |
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| | fdggkjfdgfgkfdgkjlfdg | ] |
Los dias pasan tan rapido pero los dioses despasio, jusgando lo que no tienes tiempo de correjir
so here i am at the computer lab. i just had the worst veggi soy burger i feel like i am goign to throw up. Logan is somewhere i don't really know. my phone died and so have i.
Logan painted a portrait of me and it was the best.
i am honored that he would take the time to draw this common face.
i need to go to class
but think about this:
what bout if in your next re-birth your a god
what would you do? |
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| well that sucked |
[Oct. 3rd, 2005|02:36 pm] |
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| | gloomy | ] |
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| | el ginete by jose alfredo jimenez | ] |
well that sucked, this weekend was horrible. I was in much pain all weekend. Although i had fun watching Me them and all those other people ( think that is what its called) then we had some Indian food for dinner. but aftger that i just felt li ke shit. I tell you, i feel as if the gods have been neglecting me. i feel llike rolling off a hill and seeing where i end up. dizzy? happy? sad? or just plain lost? where the fuck did i put my fucking mind!!!!? but other than that, Mr. sibrel sat next to me during my low moments. thank you Logan!!! <<=>> lol |
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| its begging to look alot like chirtmas |
[Sep. 29th, 2005|10:55 am] |
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| | ecstatic | ] |
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| | el mariachi | ] |
wow, its so fucking cold outside. but anyways, me so happy today. Nicole got me a gift out of nowhere, THATS SO NICE, nobody ever gives me gifts and she is always giving me things, i will make it up for her. Logan and i made strawberry spice cake last night it was good then we..........................it was better than the cake i tell you whuat. i am getting ready to go to my buddhism class, that is so boring i have always loved trying to undderstant hinduism and buddhism but now i find that its so boring, it is border line christianity!! except for the jesus guy. last saturday logan myself and angi and morgan went dancing i had lots of fun, everyone should see logan dance salsa he is like the energizer bunny , he keeps goign and goign and goign and0 going (sorry i think i have disleixa) andways we are goign to go back to t he dance this weekend wiht nicole , beverly and Marisol..i am goign to ask sarah to go casue she is so fun!! .. i am metting wiht someoen today to talk about the possibility of having and exhibition for myself and logan maye in december..it will be fun showing our stuff together and by that i mean art...so its a cold day but if i cancentrate on the wind enough, it feels like a warm sea breeze and that ladies and gentleman is how much i love life
viva la vida
viva el amor
viva mi logan |
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| oh what a day for a daydream |
[Sep. 22nd, 2005|10:41 am] |
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| | amused | ] |
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| | what a day for a daydream | ] |
well last night was fun, very fun, i havent talked about so many interesting things at one time, wow....i was so out of it. lol....logan fell asleep early, what a partypooper. i think i danced the drip song, lol. this morning logan left me early then me and angi got up 30 minutes later and i cooked papas con chorizo y huevo...i think it was good..but it was a good night and morning..although logan was not there to join us for breakfast..it was kind of sad, it was as sad as the fact that i forgot to salt the eggs :(
but not to worry, it was all solved by me salting them afterwards. ohh what a day!! |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 19th, 2005|05:37 pm] |
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| | calm | ] |
| [ | music |
| | logan logan logan( i made the song Up) | ] |
well i can start by saying i am so sorry Logan that we wont be able to make it to chicago....Work!!Work!!, i must work, i had already promissed someone i was goign to take pictures that weekend and i dont like to go back on my word, wich i have already done so...well ...it is great to see logan again, he walked in on me naked, it was funny and very scary!!!..but we are together again and no one, not even the ninja turtles can seperate us now, not even poseidon or cupid himself can unbreak this spell that has fallen upon us.. |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 17th, 2005|05:34 pm] |
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| | lonely | ] |
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| | cuatro milpas | ] |
what a cold weekend...what a cold day. the sun not in sight, not even the blue sky. Just a dark foe that lingers up high. the boy is not home and i'm all alone. where is the dam sun!!!! |
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| embracing time and the place where you are standing |
[Sep. 15th, 2005|01:58 pm] |
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| |  flirty | ] |
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| | sunday morning | ] |
Today marks the begining of National Hispanic Heretage month and it reminds me of the goals that i have in life. My parents brought me to this country to achive something higher that they were not able to get because of lack of resource so i will make my parents proud and my race, becasue one day, i want my name to be mentioned as an important person to this hispanic comunity, !!Viva La Raza!!, !!Viva La Vida!! !!VIva el amor!! sobre todo el amor.
Well logan logan loga, what should i say about this messy hair boy. i am knee deep, i've fallen and hard, i still have brusses from the fall, what can i say, "wow" no, to little how about "WOWWWWWW" i really need this boy in my life to make me smile, wow i say and state to all and the gods that i've fallen for this boy.... |
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| (no subject) |
[Sep. 12th, 2005|03:02 pm] |
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| | thankful | ] |
| [ | music |
| | step in the name of love | ] |
so this weekend i went camping and i had lots of fun. I'll never forget the reclining Buddha yoga possition (now now, don't be a pervert its a yoga move) so myself logan my brother his girlfriend and kim went and he had lost of fun, especially when we got lost in the woods. My parents came this past weekend and hurray to the Gods, i have food, especially tortillas, you know how we mexicans love tortillas. I had a great time with Logan we went magazine shopping at the porn shop wiht my brother and his girlfriend, we were being chased by a slut in the video booths, it was funny. |
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| hoy es hoy |
[Sep. 8th, 2005|10:54 am] |
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| | awake | ] |
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| | malagena salerosa | ] |
hoy es hoy y se siente como aller. hoy por la manana vi el anocheser de antier. predije los eventos y los dichos que voy a recivir. Logan es el hombre que me a visto mas alla de los escombros, muchas gracias querido muchas gracias por el calor desde que te conoci cada dia es un dia nuevo. |
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| ???? |
[Sep. 7th, 2005|03:03 pm] |
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| |  anxious | ] |
today i have started this journal to explain the electricity currents in my brain called thoughts. i have successfully seen them. i look at my eye very closely in the mirror and find an electric storm in there. |
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